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Sunday, October 27, 2013

Hi guys!
Haven't updated this space in quite a while, and I think the next post will be after A's.(I think this post is going to end up pretty wordy) Anyway, I really shouldn't even be typing this since A's are like in freaking 11 days?! But I guess I just needed some kind of avenue to let out some pent-up stress. I'm not feeling very prepared for it and am really scared since my prelims result was kind of shitty.. Even my good friend told me not to be too optimistic. Yet, I have no intentions of giving it up. I don't get it, I have people around me telling me that they're gonna give up and choose the option to retain etcetra. I mean why give up when you've already spent almost 2 years of JC life and haven't even tried anything? Just go out there and whack it ha ha ha. Not kidding but I'm really wishing everyone the best of luck and hoping that no one really gives up but just persevere through this one month or so. Even I'm gonna try my best so please wish me luck that I'll be able to get down on my ass everyday and just mug. I really want to prove those that look down on me wrong, and of course for my future. But without actions, it'll all just become empty words.

And yeah I'm gonna spend almost the one whole week(right before A's) going to school for time trials, study and consultations. Truthfully speaking, I think this is the one time where I've really put in some effort to study(other than primary school). I was such a nerd back then, but ever since primary 5 onwards when I moved back to my parents' house and with the computer..... All my results went downhill and even my attitude towards studying changed. I wasn't the hard-working, going home everyday bathe, study then sleep type of girl anymore and I regretted it so much. I didn't do well for secondary school and neither did I end up in an academically-excellent JC. But truth be told, even though it isn't the best out there, I don't really regret coming to YJ. As cliché as it may sound, I've met lots of good friends here and made lots of wonderful memories. I still remember that dreadful day when I woke up expecting/praying for the text from SRJC(since I was really betting on it), but got posted to YJ instead. Never did I imagined that I would actually end up in this school. Even when I went for open house, I was just taking a look around since my friends were more interested and I had zero intentions to come to this school at first. However what really changed my outlook was orientation. It was really fun with my OG mates and OGLs, they were so awesome. So myself became an OGL in JC1 orientation this year, and it was so damn fun! I really love my OG a lot hehe. Afterwards, I ended up in the best class ever: 120. Even though we all started out as strangers, we bonded so much over that one year and became such good friends, I love everyone <3 So yeah, for all those who don't think well of YJ and for those that might have really dreaded coming here, it's not really a bad school at all! The staffs, teachers and students are all really nice here! And I do think that our school's making some improvements academically and aesthetically(remodelling the art gallery and so..). Oh I guess it kinda turned out into a graduation-style paragraph, graduation was last Friday and it was pretty fun I would say! Pictures, pictures and more pictures. But I can't upload them cause I think I look terrible in them since I was running around the whole day..

I really hope for the best in A's..... sigh. So I guess I should be off studying for my bio now since it's on 7th and it's the FIRST freaking paper!!!! Consultation with my terribly strict and fierce bio teacher on monday ALONE, oh what have I gotten myself into. She's really scary but really nice too, hopefully I won't make her angry on Monday or what, oh ho or I'm as good as dead haha.

On a side note: totally can't wait for after A's. Party, shopping, overseas trips, work, play play and more play!!! Bought lots of new pretty clothes and I can't wait to wear them out! OH OH sorry for being random but Lee Min Ho is so damn good-looking in The Heirs. I wasn't a fan of him before but I'm totally fan-girling over him in The Heirs. It's a really good korean drama so go watch it if you have the chance to! Okay I better not think about all these for now, and yeah bio time. Bye!